seriously. i can sometimes see the blessing of expressing joy and sadness (amidst many other emotions), as it draws people together. God is all about the relationship stuff.
but what do you do when the stuff that is flowing out of you has no logical explanation?
do all emotions have roots connecting them to a deeper piece of who i am?
30 October 2010
29 October 2010
sunny day.
it is almost november and God has blessed me with a sunny day. not only is the weather fantastic, but peace and joy have infiltrated my heart.
here are some pictures from last saturday...on a night that was not quite as sunny. these pictures just bring a smile to my face.
here are some pictures from last saturday...on a night that was not quite as sunny. these pictures just bring a smile to my face.
this is a group of us from church going to get lost in a corn maze.
*taken while waiting in the wrong line...oops*
rain boots almost magically transform me into a little kid again. many puddles were jumped in and i had a blast sliding and slipping through the mud.
we wrapped up the night with caramel apples, hot chocolate and lots of laughter. it's not too often that i take the time to be a kid again. that needs to change.
26 October 2010
insecure.
last week i had the opportunity to listen to Graham Cooke. several statements he made struck chords deep in my heart and have challenged my perspective on many things. God has been using those words and the situations in my life to stir things up a little bit.
my sense of worth has always been a struggle for me. being unsure of that, i have tended to be insecure in most relationships since about middle school. betrayal and rejection have fueled the feelings of worthlessness and most of my pain has somehow been connected to those wounds.
last night a fresh perspective was birthed through my tears as i was crying out. instead of trying to control and regulate the external details, maybe i should deal with the junk in my heart. ugh...such a simple concept that i thought i had already learned.
with these raw wounds, it doesn't take much to cause me more pain. what i am realizing though is that people's actions (or lack of actions) that hurt me are usually caused more by how i perceive them, not necessarily the heart motives behind the action. these broken glasses skew my vision and distort everything along the same lines.
no matter how perfect and loving my friends are, if i don't realize my worth in God's eyes, i will never be able to accept their love for what it is.
my sense of worth has always been a struggle for me. being unsure of that, i have tended to be insecure in most relationships since about middle school. betrayal and rejection have fueled the feelings of worthlessness and most of my pain has somehow been connected to those wounds.
last night a fresh perspective was birthed through my tears as i was crying out. instead of trying to control and regulate the external details, maybe i should deal with the junk in my heart. ugh...such a simple concept that i thought i had already learned.
with these raw wounds, it doesn't take much to cause me more pain. what i am realizing though is that people's actions (or lack of actions) that hurt me are usually caused more by how i perceive them, not necessarily the heart motives behind the action. these broken glasses skew my vision and distort everything along the same lines.
no matter how perfect and loving my friends are, if i don't realize my worth in God's eyes, i will never be able to accept their love for what it is.
insecure.
last week i had the opportunity to listen to Graham Cooke. several statements he made struck chords deep in my heart and have challenged my perspective on many things. God has been using those words and the situations in my life to stir things up a little bit.
my sense of worth has always been a struggle for me. being unsure of that, i have tended to be insecure in most relationships since about middle school. betrayal and rejection have fueled the feelings of worthlessness and most of my pain has somehow been connected to those wounds.
last night a fresh perspective was birthed through my tears as i was crying out. instead of trying to control and regulate the external details, maybe i should deal with the junk in my heart. ugh...such a simple concept that i thought i had already learned.
with these raw wounds, it doesn't take much to cause me more pain. what i am realizing though is that people's actions (or lack of actions) that hurt me are usually caused more by how i perceive them, not necessarily the heart motives behind the action. these broken glasses skew my vision and distort everything along the same lines.
no matter how perfect and loving my friends are, if i don't realize my worth in God's eyes, i will never be able to accept their love for what it is.
my sense of worth has always been a struggle for me. being unsure of that, i have tended to be insecure in most relationships since about middle school. betrayal and rejection have fueled the feelings of worthlessness and most of my pain has somehow been connected to those wounds.
last night a fresh perspective was birthed through my tears as i was crying out. instead of trying to control and regulate the external details, maybe i should deal with the junk in my heart. ugh...such a simple concept that i thought i had already learned.
with these raw wounds, it doesn't take much to cause me more pain. what i am realizing though is that people's actions (or lack of actions) that hurt me are usually caused more by how i perceive them, not necessarily the heart motives behind the action. these broken glasses skew my vision and distort everything along the same lines.
no matter how perfect and loving my friends are, if i don't realize my worth in God's eyes, i will never be able to accept their love for what it is.
23 October 2010
crispy yogurt chicken.
**i totally made this and had this all typed out WEEKS ago and finally got to uploading the picture and finally posting it. between a dying hard drive and a forgotten charger...my laptop has had an interesting month.**
a group of friends and i decided to try out new recipes and share the results with you! this week we are making crispy yogurt chicken.
i didn't document it all with a ton of pictures, but here is the finished dish!
here is my take...it was yummy, but the kids didn't really like it. i really do not enjoy preparing and cooking meat and in my laziness i probably won't make it again.
go check out alexis, melissa and amy's blog to see how it turned out for them!
crispy yogurt chicken.
**i totally made this and had this all typed out WEEKS ago and finally got to uploading the picture and finally posting it. between a dying hard drive and a forgotten charger...my laptop has had an interesting month.**
a group of friends and i decided to try out new recipes and share the results with you! this week we are making crispy yogurt chicken.
i didn't document it all with a ton of pictures, but here is the finished dish!
here is my take...it was yummy, but the kids didn't really like it. i really do not enjoy preparing and cooking meat and in my laziness i probably won't make it again.
go check out alexis, melissa and amy's blog to see how it turned out for them!
06 October 2010
oy vey!
it's list time...again. i don't seem to have time to put together a regular post so here it goes...
- my laptop's hardware went bad. luckily the warranty still had it covered! it was weird to be without my computer for a while.
- i went to the beach with friends! we randomly picked the right weekend because it was PERFECT weather. i also cried several times during the day and my stomach hurt...we were laughing so hard all day long!
- i'm going to the Women of Faith conference this weekend. looking forward to it because i've heard it's amazing...but my schedule has been so packed, i'm praying that i'm not so tired that i can't enjoy it.
- after a long break, i'm finally being inspired to take pictures again. i love capturing the moment.
- another stage of "i have nothing to wear..." has hit. yep...i even blogged about it last year. my theory has been confirmed.
- the other day, an ATM
machine(the redundancy makes me laugh because a lot of people say it...including me) ate the money i was trying to withdraw. not a good feeling when you get the nice receipt saying that you got the money when you didn't. apparently after filing an ATM dispute, it will take 8-10 days to get your money back. oh, and i found the out of order sign sitting in the trash next to the machine... note to self: glance in the trash before starting transactions. - i love getting dressed up for occasions. however, about two hours after said celebration i was happily back in jeans and a hoodie for the rest of the evening.
- the weather this october has been phenomenal. the sunshine has not officially retired for eight months yet. :o)
- i have a gazillion blog post ideas rolling around my head but ZERO time...thank you Wonder Pets for a few minutes of time for this list.
well. my brain is tired...along with everything else. until next time...
oy vey!
it's list time...again. i don't seem to have time to put together a regular post so here it goes...
- my laptop's hardware went bad. luckily the warranty still had it covered! it was weird to be without my computer for a while.
- i went to the beach with friends! we randomly picked the right weekend because it was PERFECT weather. i also cried several times during the day and my stomach hurt...we were laughing so hard all day long!
- i'm going to the Women of Faith conference this weekend. looking forward to it because i've heard it's amazing...but my schedule has been so packed, i'm praying that i'm not so tired that i can't enjoy it.
- after a long break, i'm finally being inspired to take pictures again. i love capturing the moment.
- another stage of "i have nothing to wear..." has hit. yep...i even blogged about it last year. my theory has been confirmed.
- the other day, an ATM
machine(the redundancy makes me laugh because a lot of people say it...including me) ate the money i was trying to withdraw. not a good feeling when you get the nice receipt saying that you got the money when you didn't. apparently after filing an ATM dispute, it will take 8-10 days to get your money back. oh, and i found the out of order sign sitting in the trash next to the machine... note to self: glance in the trash before starting transactions. - i love getting dressed up for occasions. however, about two hours after said celebration i was happily back in jeans and a hoodie for the rest of the evening.
- the weather this october has been phenomenal. the sunshine has not officially retired for eight months yet. :o)
- i have a gazillion blog post ideas rolling around my head but ZERO time...thank you Wonder Pets for a few minutes of time for this list.
well. my brain is tired...along with everything else. until next time...
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