distance in worship.

when guilt and shame are weighing down my heart, engaging in worship seems so hard.  the fact that i am a sinner is so evident that i am ashamed to face anyone...especially the one who knows all of my thoughts, intentions and actions.  but the truth is that i am always in desperate need of the Savior, constantly falling short.

when worship is "easy", am i humbly coming before God with a genuine and honest view of myself?

the distance that is highlighted when i am confronted by my unworthiness reminds me of how far God is willing to go to reach me.  gratefulness infiltrates the depths of my heart and i'm brought to a deeper place of worship than ever before.

"Two people owed money to a certain moneylender.  One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty.  Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both.  Now which of them will love him more?”  

Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.”

“You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.

Luke 7:41-43